I havent wrote in this forever but I need a place to vent so I suppose my journal looked like a good spot. Why is it that no matter what I do my family cant just be happy for me. The first time I'm happy and satisfied with my life they bring the drama back into it. I can never do anything to please them if not my boyfriend its my friends and if its not my friends it grades and if not my grades then its my lack of school activities when will it stop? Your family is suppose to be there for you and support you not bring you down and tell you that you can do better. They always tell me that their doing it out of love and just pointing me into the right direction but the direction they are pointing me in makes me miserable. They cant accept my friends always telling me their a bad influence on me but maybe I'm a bad influence on myself due to the lack of self esteem I have. They cant just accept my relationship they have to pick apart every little piece until they have nothing else pick apart so they make things up. Can't they tell that he's what makes me smile he's the only thing that keeps me sane. Every single time my family brings me down and makes me feel like shit he's there. He makes me feel like I worth something that my life has some significance, not that I'll never be good enough or I'm a failure. Can't they see that they are the source of almost all my problems that I don't want their love if it means controlling my life, that maybe I'm better off without them?